I am starting with something crafty today... as you can see by the banner on my blog I am a customer of "PrintOnIt"... right now they have a great sale going on their vinyl, just click HERE to see the sale. I would so appreciate it if you purchase anything from PrintOnIt that you would go through my link here... they have other crafty items too. This is nothing great but it is vinyl I purchased from PrintOnIt and cut with my Cricut to decorate my laptop.
I woke up this morning determined to seek God’s face and to not let myself stay in this crappy, crabby state of emotions. I am realizing a pattern here that has been occurring over the last 4 or 5 months… the week before my period starts I turn into a blubbering basket case. I hate that! I really have not been a big PMS person… during-MS, yes, but no pre-MS. Why does it have to be this way now? Also, I find it very disturbing and annoying when I hear other women make comments like, “oh you are getting to that age when hot flashes will start and your hormones are a mess.” If that is the case, at that very moment I DON’T WANT TO HEAR THAT!!! I pray that as I move into this next phase in my life that I do not become one of those women… it is almost like they are saying, “AHHA we got another one to add to our little menopausal group.” Don’t get me wrong, since I was 11 once a month, like clock-work, my uterus has shed what it needed to shed, but if my womb (I really don’t like that word, “womb”… it sounds like a little kid trying to say, room) is never gonna be used to carry a precious little baby… I am more than thrilled to stop this monthly “expression of womanhood!” *Ü*
Okay, I guess I have gotten off track here. The point I am trying to get at is that this week every month for the last while has been a bad time for me to deal with the enemy’s attacks… I guess it is a good time for him but not so much for me. I am left feeling not worthy, not a good wife, not a good friend, incapable of doing anything right. Please tell me some of you reading this can relate. I know that these are just feelings and I can’t live my life by these bad emotions, but for the first day or so of this week… I really struggle. I feel sorry for my poor, loving hubby… he just doesn’t know what to do to help.
This morning I came across a verse that really spoke to my “crazy” heart… “Not that I am sufficient of myself to think of anything as being from myself, but my sufficiency is from God." II Corinthians 3:5 I really needed to be reminded this morning that I am made sufficient (enough) through Christ by God… He has written this on my heart which is so much better than just writing it on paper!
He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. II Corinthians 12:9 This is another verse I wanted to share because it has greatly impacted my life. Papa is so good at giving us just what we need when we need it if we are willing to seek Him.
Hope you have a blessed day. with a grateFUL HEART, carin